Thursday, March 31, 2011

My inspiration

Hannah dear, I'm really missing my inspiration.  I love to write and have nothing to write about with you gone.  Thank you for all you gave me precious girl.  I sure wish you were around so I could love on you, and do the thing I love.  It's been impossible without you here.  Guess I never was a writer after all.  You just did things that were easy and fun to share.  Love ya sweetie and miss you with all my heart. 

Folks, It's getting harder and harder to write, and things are definately becomign so final for me.  It's been over a year and I think it just now is settling in that my girl is gone forever.  I'm sorry.  I dont' know how much longer I'll keep this blog around.  It's emptiness of words leaves me depressed.  Thanks for all the support through the years.

Friday, March 18, 2011

East to West

Today's been a tough day....actually the whole week has been tough.  You've been gone 14 months today.  It's our favorite time of year Hannah and you're not here to enjoy it.  Spring doesn't hold the joy it used to.  You loved to be outdoors and this time would be the time before it got to hot for you to.  You could enjoy the outdoors without your cooling vest and that made you super happy.  We'd sit out back and throw tennis balls to Koolio and pick the weed flowers forever.  You never wanted to go in.  I'd give anything to have you here to do all that with right now.  It's hard to even breath in the Spring air and not feel your absence.  My hearts heavy.  Your loss changed everything.  Everything is different.  It's something I don't like or enjoy but I'm trying to make the best of it.  I so wish I didn't have to endure this change.  I'd do anything not to have to.  I'm still trusting that God has a plan and that when my life is over I'll see your beautiful face again.  What do do till then is tough to understand or figure out.  I'm trying though.  I love you sweet beautiful angel girl.  I hope your happy, thriving, and being loved so fully.  I have to believe you are, for I ask God everyday to love on you until I can again.  Miss you more than words can express.  Mommy

Sunday, March 6, 2011

Remember Hannah & support epilepsy awareness

Please wear purple March 26th!  Do it in honor of Hannah and help raise awareness of epilepsy!